Archive - The Girl Who Said No To Normal

Those feelings for you have now returned. Those butterflies in my stomache have returned everytime you look at me with those big innocent eyes, wide with wonder and beauty. The way you look like a scruff with your un-brushed brown hair and your untied shoelaces tucked into your Rockports. It's the things like this which make me love you more and more each day and the things which replay in my head like a DVD. Your still with her, yeah that's cool. I never said this would be a long term thing. But I'll give you two weeks before it's over. You say you miss me, our long night time conversations about random things, but that mean so much and are so special. The way you type sounds like how you talk and it's almost like your next to me again. You sit behind me in history. You choose to. I sat with my friend in the second row, you sat at the fourth with your friends. You moved, and sat behind me. That means something to me, so be careful. Then your foot started to harass my back, which was comforting funnily enough. When I say harass I don't mean it. I would squirm when your foot attempted to un-do my bra strap, and all you said was 'Chill, chill' in a soft voice which makes me feel good all over, like chicken soup times two. All lesson. I loved it, I really really did. You said you would sit next to me on Monday, our next history lesson. You meant it. Were falling into how we once were. Don't be afraid, it'll be okay. I'm so scared to lose you, but I know I won't because let's face facts babe, we were actually made for each other. And we've had obsticles placed infront of us, but their just tests to see if were strong enough for this kind of thing. Are you ready for this whirl wind ride called life? I am. I've been ready for this moment for a long time now. I'm prepared for the pain, the lies. I know how you play your game. I know how the story of us is supposed to pan out and I'm ready for this.

Hold on tight my beautiful boy, you've got me next to you every step of the way and I can promise you, I'll never let go.